The last two years I’ve made some amazing changes in my life, but I can’t be fooled into thinking I’ve totally changed. When struggling with the diet lately familiar old voices have been creeping back in. Two years of great work doesn’t totally wash aways forty years of self destruction, and when I hit those struggling moments it’s all too easy to start tearing myself down mentally because of it.
I’m sure I’m not alone in this mental pattern either – self criticism seems to be the thing that comes easiest to everyone.
I don’t know how to beat it long term – maybe when I’ve racked up 10 years of great work it will have faded. But for today I just focused on something that I have done well in. Two years ago when I first tried the stair master I think I lasted 5 minutes at it’s lowest speed, was winded and felt like I’d puke. Today I spent over an hour on the stairs – 202 floors and then went on to the treadmill for another hour. The only embarrassing part was the puddle of sweat at the base of the stair master.
When everything isn’t working the way you’d like – find that one thing that is and focus on it. Yeah I’m not at the weight I want to be at yet – but I’m the fittest and strongest I’ve ever been in my life.
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